vamlumtimes day

so i'm sitting here being bored and alone.  i don't enjoy valentines much.  last year wasn't so hot for me, so today isn't so special for me.  today was kinda lame, i worked all day and now i'm sitting around watching tv and doing nothing...alone.  oh well such is life.  it's not that i can't stand being by myself, i don't define myself by who i'm w/ or my relationship status.  i'm happy w/ who i am as a person.  one thing that i do miss is the companionship though.  alot.  i'm such an extrovert i hate being alone for extended amounts of time.  it probably doesn't help that i spend most of my time at work setting up wedding reservations and helping couples pick out stuff for their weddings. oh well. such is life.

so my songs this time around center around the holiday and are ones that i'd probably enjoy more if my situation were different

waking ashland- october skies(one of my favorite sappy songs of all time.  the only wedding planning i'll do is have this played at my wedding)

anberlin- inevitable(i have a huge love/hate emotion about this song)

something corporate- cavanaugh park

mat kearney- bullet(kinda different, but the lyrics are amazing)

melee- built to last

keane- somewhere only we know

in need of a chat

so life is stressful. good, but stressful. i'm really busy w/ work and whatnot. i'm currently a member of the men's wearhouse sales team. i'm enjoying making people look good. i seem to be pretty good at it. the other day one of the sales reps and i sold a guy 1,900 bucks worth of stuff. it was spectacular.

on the other hand, i really miss people. people from school, people from home, people in general. this whole living half an hour from everyone just isn't working. yea i get to see one of my really good friends every day at work but still, just one person isn't cutting it. i miss those people from school who i was just getting to know better and those people who i was starting to need in my daily routine to not go insane. and then i miss my friends from home. i was listening to some taking back sunday and missed my concert times with my best friends from home. and then i just miss my friends from home anyway, they're the greatest folk ever. being a "grown up" isn't as fun as people make it seem.

i'm feeling really anthemic(i don't think that's a word but spell check said it is). songs that you could see live and the band and audience would be screaming the same line over and over at the top of their lungs and just having a sort of koombiya. i want to go to a show really bad. i went to one a few weeks ago, but i want to go again. so here we go

taking back sunday- slow dance on the inside
funeral for a friend- rookie of the year
underoath- it's dangerous business walking out your front door
angels and airwaves- the adventure
brand new- the quiet things no one ever knows
creedence clearwater revival- fortunate son
radiohead- creep
story of the year- until the day i die