so i'm enjoying my coffee once again. i couldn't have it for a while due to "ulcerative gastritis" or whatever it was called. that sucked. alot. but when i could have it again, boy did it kick me in the pants.

so i'm really excited for this summer. the school year has been wearing me out a ton lately. i need to recharge. i've been killing myself on my next sermon that i'm giving. it's gonna be a good one, but getting it done is such a pain.

chapel the other day was awesome. my buddy brian spoke and he killed it. his sermon over needing urgency in our relationships and not being sucked into the idea that we'll always have more time to get things done. i loved it.

i need to not postpone things, not just school(which i've gotten scary good at) but everything. i finally got around to asking my buddy justin to come to chapel w/ me. i've been trying to get my roommates to come, but all i've given is empty invitations. i haven't really put myself out there in an uncomfortable situation in order to get them there. we've had all the casual talks, them asking general questions about doctrine and general theology and the "why do you believe that?" talks. but i've never actually done the "hey, i really want you to come to church w/ me" or actually sit down and talk to them in a serious way. my sermon that i'm talking is on having a good testimony and being able to share it with others. but even if you have a good testimony it doesn't do any good if you don't share it with others.

brian said it best when he said that "evangelism isn't just winning an argument." we can't just hope that we can argue our way into making people believe in Christ. there is so much more than that. it goes past the victory, and for me it's more about the journey of going through the transition from possible strangers with someone or wherever you are with them and walking through a transformation to a Christian w/ a real belief in Christ.

anyway, i'm not sure how this whole 23 years old thing is gonna go. it doesn't even feel like my birthday. just another day. i guess that's the real sign of getting old. anyway, hopefully the rest of the day will be fun

further seems forever- light up ahead
melee- the war
anberlin- alexithymia
anberlin- dance dance christa paffgen
oh screw it, anything anberlin is good, just go listen to them