john mayer? really?

so here i am, start of another semester. classes are intimidating, looking like i'm gonna be busy alot. even more so than last semester.

it looks like it's shaping up for a lonely semester. but that's not what i came to manhattan for. i came to finish school and refocus my efforts where they should have been: on school and God. work needs to get put into that secondary role. i let it slip into a primary thing before, and so with that said, i need to make sure that i don't lose track of my priorities.

so i started a workout program w/ a friend. we're hopefully gonna be taking it seriously and not losing track of our goals. i'm happy that i have someone to achieve those goals with. i need that time where i can just zone out and focus on my run or lifting or whatever i happen to be doing. now that i have someone to hold myself accountable hopefully i'll get to doing that more often

but still i'm lonely. all my guy friends can only do so much. not to take away from them at all, but it's still not the same. my best friend advised me that i should just pray about it more often,, which i'll admit i haven't been so good about lately. but now that i'm getting at it more, i'm just frustrated waiting for the results. trusting God is easy to say you do, and easy to do often times, but with certain subjects, you kinda get anxious. i'm glad i'm not letting someone run my life for me, make my decisions as to who i hang out w/ and what i do. but i would enjoy some input on it. i feel like i complain alot about this. i shouldn't, but i do.

so john mayer huh? yea, i never really like him much but his song heartbreak warfare really jumps out at me. the lyrics stick with me.
"disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak"
"I dont care if we dont sleep at all tonight
Lets just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God were gonna get it right
If you lay your weapons down"

stuff like that. it's true, no matter what you're disappointed with, if you really are disappointed with it is heartbreak. some are destined to be disappointed more than others though. i seem to be destined to feel it alot more than others. i wish sometimes people would put their "weapons" away for a bit and just realize what they have going for them. i'm not just talking with me, but i see others who could be so happy but they're spending their time chasing things that don't matter. i would prefer to chase things that DO matter, like school and opportunities to learn about God but i know that i get caught up in trivial things. with that said, i'm going to bed and leaving with the best lyric of the song

"Drop his name, push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face as I pretend to feel no pain pain pain"



relient k: which to bury, us or the hatchet?
john mayer: heartbreak warfare
john mayer: friends, lovers or nothing
melee: can't hold on
keith urban: standin' right in front of you
lady antebellum: need you now
dustin kensrue: pistol