So really this isn't what i'm thinking myself, but really what i want to hear someone say to me. it's from copeland in the song "no one really wins" and the song is so so true. my brain is saying to do one thing and my heart is saying another. no matter what way i choose i'm in a no win situation. it sucks. to put it simply i want to stop holding out for something thats not going to happen, i want to stop being somebody's "option" or "backup plan" and instead be someone's pick. not just in a relationship/dating sense but just in general. i don't want to be something that people just assume will always be there. i want to be given some sort of priority. since i've moved off campus it's really shown me who my real friends are. the ones who make an effort to see me or even just talk to me and see how life is.
anyway, i'm done. this uconn/syracuse game is freaking awesome. it's in the 5th overtime. such a good game even though neither team deserves to win at this point. they've both had so many chances to win and botched it many times.
playlist:
copeland: no one really wins
keane: perfect symmetry
3oh!3: don't trust me
rise against: savior
shawn mcdonald: free
white tie affair: candle(currently my guilty pleasure song)
bobby darin: more(i decided that this is the song i want my first dance with my wife to be)
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